I’ll keep holding on

(Original appeared May 11, 2016)

Remember that 80’s song from Simply Red? I found myself singing primarily the refrain of the song for the 45 minutes while I held Jacob’s tiny hand this morning. (More like he was holding my finger tip.) He woke up for a bit as if to say ‘good morning mama’ and then slowly drifted back to sleep. With his air leak it sounded like he was snoring. What a way to spend the morning!
Last night the line in his belly had to come out. It is strongly believed that the infection is stemming from that line. We pray the blood culture will come back negative in order to get his PIC line in. (Culture results won’t be read until late tomorrow or so.)
For now I’ll need to find a pee-pee dance song to play for him tho. He is back to minimal output again. While holding his hand this morming I tried to describe for him various waterfalls, rivers, of course the lake… he probably thought I sounded like a babbling brook.
All in all he stayed stable last night. He now weighs 2lb 2oz. (That is up 120 grams). His bedding was changed out last night & replaced with Cubs bedding. Go Cubs!
I look forward to another opportunity to hold him tomorrow while they change out his isolette.
For now I’ll keep holding on to these awesome memories and positive moments to come!
Blessings on your day everyone! -D